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A Lot Can Happen in a Year

I haven’t written anything in over a year.  Looking through my old posts made me laugh.  What seemed like the end of the world back then is now so minuscule.

I have accomplished quite a few things since then: I graduated nursing school and passed the NCLEX.  I was also lucky enough to get a job and participate in the StaRN program.  Tomorrow will be my first official  day with a preceptor in the hospital as a registered nurse.  Usually, I would be way too nervous to sleep, but I think that I am too tired to even think about it.

I’ve also learned a lot about myself and people in general.  According to different personality test, I am an INFJ and my brightest color is blue, with gold being a runner up.  I still get confused with life and how my brain works, but hey– one step at a time, right? If I could commend myself with anything, it would be for gaining more confidence, even if it’s still not as high as I truly wish it to be.

Certain people have shaped me into the person who I wanted to be for a long time.  A million thanks would not be enough to show my appreciation to everyone who took their time to involve me in their lives.

I hope to share memories here more often, rather than once a year or so.  The act of typing what happens in my daily shenanigans should improve my memory and help me appreciate life more.

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I Changed my Mind

I finally thought about it, and yes, I did change my mind. Kind of.

So, this is what’s up. It happened in first grade, or was it 3rd…? (I have a bad memory). I had an assignment that asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, why, and even a drawing of my future self, doing whatever career i chose. I was around 5-7 years old, so clearly, I didn’t know much about careers. I chose one of the few jobs that I knew about: a nurse. My aunt was (and is) a nurse, so I said, why not?
I wrote that I wanted to be a nurse “to help the sick,” and I drew, the best as my little hands could, a girl wearing a nurse hat, treating a sick patient. Now that I think about it, I’m not even sure if I REALLY wanted to help the sick. Maybe I just wrote it to look humble. What a sick child I was. Haha just kidding. Maybe.

Anyways, after that, every time someone asked me what I wanted to be, I would always say, without hesitation, “a nurse.” I never thought about it much. I just had the idea in my mind that being a nurse is what i wanted To Be. But in reality, maybe it just wasn’t what I truly wanted. Now that I’m a little older, in a way, I do Want to work somewhat like a nurse. Helping people. This time, it’s genuine, but still, why do I feel like it’s just not going to complete me?

By the time I was 11, my mother had gone back to college to be a nurse. Now, she’s a registered nurse and her patients love her (except the crazy ones). Oh, did I also mention that my cousin passed her nursing exam? Also, my sister is in nursing school! A whole family of nurses! Crazy right? I’m on my way there too. I’m in my freshman year of college (and junior in hs), taking necessary subjects for my “nursing path.”

Now I feel stuck. I’m having second guesses. It’s pretty silly to be nervous about it, since I’m still sixteen, with my whole life ahead of me. And I can change my mind any time I want, but it feels weird, since I’ve had the mind set of being a nurse my entire life. That was it. I was going to be a nurse until the day that I shrivelled up and retire, then go around the world or something. Nothing else.

Consequently, I’ve had other career choices that I definitely thought about: architect, interior designer, chef, artist, musician, etc. But every time I thought about it, I laughed at myself. You can’t be any of those, silly! You’re going to be a nurse, and that’s basically it for you! I thought of the things that I loved to do as a “hobby.” Surely, a hobby couldn’t be your career right? Wrong. I got inspired by many of the youtubers that I follow. They said that they are truly happy for what they do: doing something they’re passionate about as their career.

Now, I know that I can do whatever I want, if i truly put all my effort into it. So, (hopefully, this is if most things turn out fine), I’ll finish college and do Get my degree for nursing (just to try it out as a new experience, and for financial stability). On the side, I want to write children’s books and help the hungry by cooking for them 🙂 and writing my own music. I have wayyyyy more, but that’s the main part.

Lol this post probably made no sense, but now I feel better. 🙂 i don’t feel so stuck anymore

Oh, one more thing…
What do I want to be when I grow up?
A better person, of course.

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