It’s been so long since I’ve typed up my feelings and thoughts– primarily since the only thing that I seem to be focused on these days is studying.
Over the past few days, I noticed how moody and angry I have become. I didn’t know the cause of this, but I soon realized that it was from built up frustrations that I’ve kept deep inside. For the most part, I am content with how my life is going. I always think of how thankful I am for the blessings that I’ve been given. However, the spoiled child inside of me can’t help but wish for more. I wish that my loved ones wouldn’t get sick; I am tired of people having to deal with health issues that I can’t fix. It makes me feel useless.
I wish that I could be on the same page as
someone, but the more I think about compromising, the more crazy I get. If only we could walk a mile in each other’s shoes; maybe we would understand each other more…
I wish I could get a job. I could complain all day about not getting hired, but it is to my own fault that I have not been getting anywhere. I am planning on applying to as many places as I can during spring break.
Why is money always an issue? I can never have enough of it, as disgusting as that sounds. Out loud, I say that money has no true value, but I know that I am just lying to myself. I need money so I could buy a plane ticket to the Philippines to be with my relatives that I haven’t seen for almost a decade. My frustration levels are just out of this world.
I wish I could remember everything that I learn in nursing school to make life easier (but what fun is an easy life, right?). It is, again, frustrating to work so hard to learn a plethora of information, then lose it a week later. It amazes me how my classmates can pass tests while being employed (and some even have kids). They are good multitaskers that I can learn a lot from. I get very stressed for clinicals and tests and I need to just calm down (easier said than done).
This is just a complaining post that has no point. It’s just good to vent sometimes…